Broken Hearted???
Who understands love? Who understands women?
Love is such a complex feeling; the happiness, the fear, the hope, the wait… . It is so wonderful to be in love: every little insignificant bacteria seems to be there just to be loved, your brain starts flooding with feelings of "everlasting love", "first kiss" and some other useless stuff. I can’t deny it is wonderful… As long as it lasts. As soon as you are abruptly pulled from the clouds painted in pastel colors, you see that it was all for nothing, that you wasted your time chasing a dream that will hardly become true.
From the very first moment I thought he was a good guy, and as time passed and I got to know him better, I told myself he was almost perfect (almost perfect because no one is perfect and because of other minor things not worth mentioning). So, I began fancying him. We always wrote each other SMS and chatted online. I really loved writing to him and playing those "online msn games"; sometimes I lost on purpose to cheer him up, I remember at some point having told him I really liked him (because he asked me who I liked), and he seemed ok with that. We have been friends all this time, frequently writing SMS and chatting almost every night on the messenger.
You will be probably thinking "everything seems to be fine, then, what the heck happened?"
I just feel like our friendship is slowly cooling down. He doesn’t reply my messages as he did a few days ago, and I can’t feel the same emotion there existed when we chatted. I feel like loosing him, and I want to give up trying to win him. What I fear most is to lose him as a friend; you can’t imagine how wonderful he is.
Love is such a complex feeling; you have to dive in it to feel it, but you can drown when you realize what the reality is like. Now I feel like not wanting to fall in love again, because everyone I do, I’m the one who drowns…
September 23rd, 2006 at 5:23 am
wheow! my friend, what a nice msg. can relate to that.
miss you!